Letter Thirty Four

Dear sis,

We had really a great time at the end of August for a week. It turned out I stayed with him, like a couple. Sweet, some doubts, anxiety and lots of love. 

But on the topic of relationship....we still followed the conventional way..."choosing the one in your life circle, not the one in a far away land." That's what he meant. 

He talked about his perspective on life partner...and then he denied it again. saying theory is just temporary as it changes through time...and reality is often opposite from theory. 

I was weeping for two days...it was really beautiful to stay with him and his dog. Feeling like we have met long time ago. He sometimes got upset for..perhaps confusion by the status and I got anxious for not assuring myself really wanting to do this. 

I try very hard to keep it as a beautiful memory...but somehow at the bottom of my heart I don't want it just be a memory....I want him to be with me to explore the world. 

Can you tell me if it's possible? I miss him so much.


xx

Nana.