Letter Thirty Six

Dear Sis,

這幾天莫名的焦慮。想要緊緊抱著你，然後跟你說我還是很喜歡他，但是努力地在忘記。雖然我還是自我矛盾當中。

但現在的生活目標重要更多，我想要好好地做策展、表演活動的工作。

揮之不去的焦慮希望接下來一周會有答覆。

我不知道我是不是懷孕了。


Should I find a way to see him again.

I hope you can give me more strength.

xx

Luv u


Nana.

Letter Thirty Five

Dear Sis

I think it's time to wake up. This is it. I have to be focus. See who love me and explore. Keep explore the world. Do what I love. Find who I love and who love me as a life partner.

Wake up from a very beautiful dream and this is it. This is it.



X
Nana.

Letter Thirty Four

Dear sis,

We had really a great time at the end of August for a week. It turned out I stayed with him, like a couple. Sweet, some doubts, anxiety and lots of love. 

But on the topic of relationship....we still followed the conventional way..."choosing the one in your life circle, not the one in a far away land." That's what he meant. 

He talked about his perspective on life partner...and then he denied it again. saying theory is just temporary as it changes through time...and reality is often opposite from theory. 

I was weeping for two days...it was really beautiful to stay with him and his dog. Feeling like we have met long time ago. He sometimes got upset for..perhaps confusion by the status and I got anxious for not assuring myself really wanting to do this. 

I try very hard to keep it as a beautiful memory...but somehow at the bottom of my heart I don't want it just be a memory....I want him to be with me to explore the world. 

Can you tell me if it's possible? I miss him so much.


xx

Nana.